She loved him,
He loved her,
Love became an obsession,
She didn’t want to be played
The razor became her friend,
And he gave her the blade.
-Hunter J. (Alex_Monster (me))
So I was talking to my crush, I was depressed and I was letting all my depression and anger out onto him. I started freaking out saying im sorry i’m putting all my pain on him, and he said, ‘no please stay, let me help you. i’ll be your sponge, i’ll take your pain, just please stay.’ By that time I threw my ipod down and ran into my room, after 1 week of self-harm free I self-harmed again, this time it was bad, It was impossible to hide, I was scared. I picked up my ipod again and I said to my crush: ‘I’m so scared… I can’t hide them…’ He asked me what I was hiding and I replied: ‘I did it again, I’m so sorry I broke… ’ And I told him I cut again. He said ‘I’m not worried about that i’m worried about you, are you okay?’ I started bawling as I replied: ‘I’m fine…’ He replied quickly ‘Are you sure? I don’t believe you. Show me your cuts show me how bad they are’ So I hesitantly sent him a photo of my cuts. They were down my arms to my elbow, a few were above my elbow, they were on every inch of my arms, all the way around, and they my fingers and hand had them too. I sent it to him and said: ‘I’m so…sorry, Im so stupid! ugh im an idiot why am I acting like an emofag again’ He replied instantly ‘You can cut, You can do whatever makes you feel better, as Long As I never lose you. I don’t want to lose you ever. Please never leave me… Don’t ever try to kill yourself, I’d do anything for you.’ And I started crying harder. He is the only guy who knows how to treat a cutter. You can’t tell them to quit because its an addiction.
breakmyminddown said: You are gorgeous babe nomnom
Thanks ^_^ you are too even though I’ve never seen you before.
What If bugs worked all their lives to earn certain names and they have to do certain things to earn their names, and then us humans come along calling them pests or insects or bugs or spiders or anything and their just like ‘is dis bitch serious?’ And that’s why they come into our homes, they just want to tell us their name. But they never get to do it because we kill them.
getdrunkforfun said: You look amazing ! :) do you have kik ?
Uhm yeah ._. Alex_monster